Friday, March 17, 2006

Being content with God's will

I sit at the computer knowing I should post, but nothing... There is so many thoughts swirling around in my head and I don't really know how to put them into words. I guess I will try!
God has been doing some awesome work in me lately. Its what I need although at times it's quite painful. God has given me numerous opportunities to share with the teens at our church and I am starting to see alot of growth. I am so busy with them, always giving and giving. Because of that my job was starting to suffer. I have been putting all my passion and effort into the youth that I didn't seem to have anything left when it came to the kids I nanny for. I've been feeling like this for a while, but last week it hit me hard. I am not content anymore. Or maybe its more than that? I feel as if my walk with Christ suffers because I live with unbelievers. It's not like they are bad people or anything like that, it's just that God is never spoken of unless used as a sware word. There is other issues like not having my own space or quiet area to call my own, not having my own car, living someone elses life.
Anyways... I don't mean to complain and I really would like to work with these people. Ultimately I would like to see them saved, but I wonder if I or we have just become too close?? If we all need a little space??
I know that I need to pray about this more and I need all the prayer that I can get from you too. I don't know if this is from satan. Is he trying to discourage me, take away my peace?? Or is God trying to tell me that there is something more that He wants me to do??? I know that my heart is here in Rockland as far as my church family goes. I just don't know if this is where I am suppose to be working. I know that God's timing is not mine and I need to trust Him. I also need to remember that God's will is what I would choose for my life if I knew what He knows!!!
Its funny, I think I have nothing to say and then once I start writing I write a novel!!!
Anyways... thanks for your prayers.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

A prayer for Jenni....

My sister has been on my heart for a while, but lately it seems more urgent. I see a person that I love taking a path she was never intended to take. For those of you who don't know my sister. She is almost 28 and is a mother of two. She has gone away from anything that she was taught, God, marriage, family. She is so far down this road that she is only a former shell of herself, The Jenni we all know and love. Not only is she living a lifestyle that is against everything God stands for, but now she is getting involved in the new age and what that implies.

My prayer and my hearts desire for her is that she stops running from God and surrenders her life to Him. She has gone so far that I don't know how much longer she will be able to her His voice. I know that God is Awesome and that He is in control. I also know that prayer really works. That is why I am asking that whoever reads this post will take the time to uphold her in prayer.
I am praying that God do whatever it takes to save my sister. I love her so much and couldn't imagine spending eternity without her.
Thank you for your prayers.