I'm turning over a new leaf...

Really... I am:) I am going to try to keep up with my writing. I just have been so busy that I can't seem to find the time.
I've had a lot on my mind lately and thought that writing it down would help me sort through it.
I have a couple of friends that as of late have completely abandoned anything that is remotely Godly. They are living the brittney spears, paris hilton party life and seeming to enjoy it very much. What I don't understand is that these friends are professing Christians and their actions don't seem to bother them. I know that we have free will and that we can choose to do whatever it is that we want to do, but where's the Holy Spirit in all of this??? It seems to me that If I was living that kind of lifestyle I would be very miserable and my consience would bother me alot... What about Romans6?
Then I thought about my life and my reasoning for not living that lifestyle and what I come up with is that I fear the consequences. I've always been the one to "preach" against "fire insurance" but maybe I fall into that category??
How do I get from the, "I'm scared of the consequences" to "I love God so I choose to please Him instead"??
I don't know if I'm making any sense, but this is something that I have been dealing with lately.
The questions that keep running through my head are:
Do I really love God?? How much do I love God??? Am I showing it????